Lawrence blinked blood, sweat, and a single tear from his eye.
Everything hurt. Everything.
His head, his face, his neck, his chest, his stomach, his side, his legs, his feet. Everything.
He let himself collapse onto the tile. It wasn’t a very soft landing. He would have howled in pain if he could draw in the proper air into his lungs.
Not so much, right now.
Of everything that was hurting, his neck had the worst of it. He could still feel Granon’s grip, his heavy and huge and rough fingers wrapping around him, choking him. The very real possibility that he was going to die.
He had retreated, the pain fading, turning it into a white noise that buzzed throughout his entire head and body. A certain, very specific kind of numbness.
The kind of numbness that would have made him complicit in his own death if he submitted to it, did nothing.
Fuck that shit.
He’d do what he had to. And in that, the buzzing, he found the last remaining slivers of strength, and used it.
Fight or flight, and Lawrence had chosen the former.
But now, he didn’t have the strength to pick either option, if he had to do it again. He was spent.
The buzzing continued. His head pounding, his vision fuzzy. If he were to somehow slip away, now, after giving everything he had to survive…
He would have laughed. Somehow. He’d find a way.
Now, he just had to make it to the next minute. And the next one. And the one after that.
His part was done.
It was all up to her-
A shot rang out. Lawrence flinched, and all the pain in his body ratcheted up again. Flaring, searing. Screaming.
It would have been so easy to just fall back and sleep. To give in, and just let the natural flow of things take him and drag him away into nothingness. Into the gloom.
Hell fucking no.
Rolling off the momentum of the flinch, the pain, Lawrence used to that to keep moving, dragging himself over the Granon. Granon’s body.
The man was huge, like a wall of muscle, vaguely shaped as a human body, the outline wide. The strength of a bull, and just as stubborn. A pain in the ass, really. Of all the problems Lawrence had in the twenty-something years of being on this planet, Xander L. Granon was absolutely the biggest one. Figuratively and literally.
And Lawrence had just taken care of that problem.
Granon was still, unmoving. His head was tilted to one side, his arms and legs spread out around him. Eyes half-open, the tip of his tongue sticking out. If he wasn’t dead, Lawrence would have died from shock, himself. It would be like if Goliath had gotten up after David struck him with a rock and a sling. All that effort would have been made meaningless.
He didn’t move, though, to Lawrence’s relief. After all the boasting and gloating, after all the condescending, Granon was still human. And humans were so very fragile.
Shots continued to fire, and Lawrence continued to move over to Granon’s body. He needed cover, and, even on his back, Granon was big enough that Lawrence could use him as a shield.
All the chaos and bloodshed of a war zone, condensed into a single, small hallway. Confusion, disarray, violence. Lawrence’s part was over, but he still wasn’t safe. The battle continued.
Lawrence got closer to the body, his arms and sleeves getting soaked in the blood and other junk. He could sense the stench of it hit his nose, making his stomach jump in revulsion. It made him want to throw up again.
He couldn’t believe he had to stoop so low. That he had to play dirty in order to win. But, he did what he had to, and Lawrence wasn’t ashamed that he had to pull that card. It was…
The fact that the situation even called for a play so dirty, so low.
He would have never predicted his life ever getting to this point.
As if to punctuate his thoughts, another shot was fired.
Lawrence got into position, taking cover behind Granon. His body ached with every heavy beat of his heart.
The shots continued, but the gap between each one began to widen. More sporadic, random. What filled the spaces in between were screams.
No, not screams. Shouts.
On both sides of Lawrence and Granon, people ran by, passing them. Granon’s. They didn’t seem to care that they were leaving their boss behind, and the man that might have very well killed him, in the most unfortunate and humiliating manner.
More of them ran past Lawrence, screaming.
Something else had taken over. Their focus wasn’t on regaining the upper hand, anymore, it was something more primal. Like what he had experienced, just now.
Fight or flight. And they chose to flee.
Then Lawrence saw what they were trying to flee from.
It came by in a flash. Not to his left, or his right, but above. Jumping over Lawrence and Granon’s body.
It landed, head down, on all fours. Shoulder blades stuck out of its back, as if it would break through the skin itself. The visual reminded him of a tiger, or some other creature.
It pounced before Lawrence got a longer, better look at the thing. Diving, then crashing into the group of Granon’s men, several of them falling down with her.
Her. The realization dawned on him.
The crash left only a few standing, those on the outside of the group managing an escape by stepping over their comrades and staying close to the walls. They broke into a run as soon as they had the clearance to, then turning the corner to run down another hall. They were gone, leaving their boss and their friends behind.
The less fortunate were at the mercy of her. And she didn’t seem to be in the mood.
From the pile of fallen, bodies started to fly. Thrown with abandon, only stopping when they slammed into the wall, or the corner where the wall met the ceiling. Bodies landed funny as they hit the floor, assuming awkward positions, not moving afterwards. Broken bones, if they were lucky. Anything worse, and they might not ever get up again.
Others tried. The ones who hadn’t gotten thrown crawled and grabbed for purchase, anything that could get them back up to their feet. They were fighting each other as much as they were fighting her.
It was a mess, in every sense of the word. From the blood and junk, to the weeping, to the gnashing of teeth. It was hell.
A body was thrown. It a direct crash into the ceiling, knocking out a light. A shadow was cast on the panic and disorder.
Back on all fours. She was above them. One hand on someone’s head, keeping them down. Her feet were at different angles, pressing into two different bodies in the pile. Her other hand…
Her other hand kept going up and down, back and forth from her chin to something in the pile. It was hard to tell. Her back was to Lawrence.
The trail that would follow as she raised her hand up made Lawrence want to hurl again.
This is who she really is.
Lawrence had seen it when he arrived. He still couldn’t believe it.
All the damage, the destruction.
He’d never seen so much blood before.
It divided the hallways, from her side to his. The victims were on her side, not moving, Granon included. Dead or alive, he wasn’t sure at the time.
And there she was.
She had been out of it, in a daze, staring at him as if she had no idea what the hell she did. Maybe she didn’t.
That still didn’t excuse how horrific it all looked.
The streaks of red had length to them, stretching and splashing out to every portion of the hall. Walls, floor, ceiling. There was a general path to the color, too, a sort of loose line that extended out and down the hallway, until it trailed off at the end. A spiral.
There was still more to it.
The cuts and scrapes that clawed into the different surfaces of the hall, scratches that had carved lines, breaking the tile and the brick and some of the light fixtures. There wasn’t anything in her hands when he found her. Lawrence couldn’t even begin to guess where the marks came from.
Had she even noticed? The daze she was in, the lack of response and her inability to speak properly when he questioned her made him think she was in shock over something. Something had happened, and she might be as lost as he was.
Do I even want to know?
A graphic scene, with graphic details. They wouldn’t ever leave Lawrence’s mind.
Neither would this.
The damage had continued, the destruction still being wrought.
Some got a second chance of luck, one finding themselves able to break free and run around the corner, while others ran back the way they came, passing Lawrence one more time. ‘Run’ and ‘ran’ were inaccurate words, however, as none of them could manage a full sprint. Every one of them were comprised or hurt in some way.
One that chose to book it for the corner turned, looking back at her, still over his comrades. He lifted his arm. He had a gun.
He fired the second another person ran past him, bumping into him in the process.
She was thrown back, sent spinning off the people she had pinned below.
That was the reason why the shots started being less frequent. It was dangerous and idiotic to fire any guns in such a narrow space, with a lot of people, in close range. She had gotten in close, when what they needed was distance.
One of them got that distance, and was idiotic enough to give it another try.
Lucky you, Lawrence thought.
The screams turned into shouts, more organized in their message, though it was still simple. Run.
Those who could get up, did, and those who could not were either never moving again, or they stayed there, playing dead, praying she would not return to investigate.
Everyone who could scatter, scattered.
She was standing, now, though she leaned to the side, massaging a shoulder. She gave her hand a hard shake, like her arm had gone asleep, and then stretched both arms. She was fine.
A bullet had merely given her pause.
She turned, facing Lawrence.
His own blood ran cold.
She was looking right at him.
From the nose down, her entire face was red. Not in being flustered, but of blood. He saw that she’d gotten kicked in the teeth, when Granon inexplicably stood back up, but her teeth were red, too. That was recent, that just happened right now.
Lawrence didn’t know what to expect, and what he got still horrified him. He would have never expected that.
Clothes torn, hair wild. Her glasses were crooked, bent at an angle. Her eyes, not a human’s eyes. Animalistic, primal.
But, then why is she crying?
Her expression was the opposite of blank. Even with his vision not being what it should be, he could still see how her face was screwed up, scrunched, forehead and space between the eyebrows creasing. Clear lines ran down her cheeks, washing some of the red liquid. The way she was shaking, hiccuping.
She was crying.
Like she’s coming down from her high.
Lawrence had seen that before, those symptoms, but he wasn’t sure if the same principle applied, here. This was too alien, too foreign for probably anyone to understand.
She lumbered forward, a single step, and Lawrence started to feel a panic grip him.
Fight or flight. He had to choose again.
I don’t have have the energy to.
She continued to stumble towards him, shaking her head, hitting her head with the palm of her hand.
This isn’t real.
Both of her hands were brought up to her face, now, covering them. Still trembling. In her distraction, all of Granon’s men who were capable had made their escape. It was just Lawrence, now.
He tried to move, but found himself too exhausted, too heavy. He could barely move his legs, or lift his arms. His throat was still on fire, no sound was coming out.
Couldn’t move, couldn’t scream for help. Lawrence was helpless.
Snapping her head back, she yelled. The noise was rough, raw, frayed at the end. An inhuman sound.
Twisting, writhing, it was like something was right under her skin, trying to dig its way out. And she was suffering for it.
She swung an arm, hitting the wall. She left a dent, chunks of brick flying out.
Her hands went back to her face, her raw howl filling Lawrence’s ears.
Someone, please, help me. Help her.
Then, she turned, back in Lawrence’s direction. He was still frozen.
She moved to him again, but she didn’t falter. She headed straight to Lawrence. Faster.
No no no fuck no no fuck fuck no no shit fuck–
She dropped to her hands, getting into a position. Pushing with her feet, she jumped over to Lawrence.
She threw Lawrence against the wall, a sharp edge jabbing into his back.
He opened his mouth make a sound, but that only gave her more of an opening.
Her lips pressed against his, and he felt her tongue. He didn’t have much a choice expect to push back with his own.
They stayed in the moment for a while, until Lawrence was able to convince himself that he enjoyed it.
She was pretty, she smelled nice, and she was making all the right moves. Nibbling at his lip, making small noises, running her fingers through his hair, pulling at it ever so slightly. It was good. Good.
It was a good distraction.
Torn away, too fast, sudden. Her tooth clipped the underside of his lip.
Lawrence jolted, letting out a harsh grasp. Then again, as his back was jabbed again.
Charlie was the culprit, the one who had spoiled the moment. Very firm, she moved the girl away from him, and pushed her back into the crowd of people. The girl didn’t seem all that bothered by the interruption, though, as she simply moved on, going elsewhere, soon disappearing into the mass of dancing and partying.
Lawrence shot a quick glare at Charlie, who only rolled her eyes.
“I was in the middle of something,” Lawrence told her.
Charlie shot back with a look of her own.
Long but wild hair, sharp eyebrows, and a dash of freckles across her face, Charlie had a unique look that made her expression more defined. She knew how to make Lawrence feel like shit, as if he actually did something wrong.
But, Lawrence had gotten that look enough times that the effect had diminished.
He rubbed the corner of his mouth, licking his lips.
“Man, you’re killing my vibe,” he said, shrugging it off.
“We’re not here to party, El, we have a job to do. I thought you were going to take this seriously.”
“I am taking this seriously. I’m fucking nervous as shit, Charlie, I need a distraction.”
“What are you so nervous for?”
Lawrence scratched his arm, then pushed himself off the wall. He felt what was poking him earlier. The side of a drawer.
That’s what that was.
“This is our first drop off,” Lawrence said, “And our first real meeting with the big guys. So of course I need something to take my mind off that. And you ruined it by kicking her out. I kind of liked her, you know.”
Charlie didn’t look impressed in the slightest.
“What’s her name?”
Lawrence grinned, sly. It only prompted a harder eye-roll from Charlie.
“You are an ass,” she said.
“Whatever, I’m back in the now, no thanks to you. Let’s just count up the funds, did we reach the quota?”
“I’m one-thousand percent sure we did, but I want to get the others first, so we can pile everything up into a final count. I’ll go grab them?”
Lawrence nodded. “Por favor.”
Charlie nodded back, and left Lawrence, and the kitchen, to go grab the others.
Lawrence put himself back against the kitchen counter, being careful, so the drawer wouldn’t jab him again. He crossed his arms and waited.
Everything was going according to plan. It should. The plan was rather simple.
They were at a house party, in the suburbs. It wasn’t their house, but they brought the party.
Drugs. Not the hardcore stuff, but moderation was always a good policy for anything. Weed, molly, xannies, anything these kids needed to make a good time better. They were to sell the whole stash, and make a profit when they return to their bosses. Maybe recruit a few who might be interested, in the process. Some more muscle.
A lot of work, being a part of a gang. But it was easy work, and it was even fun work.
If I’m going to go to these parties and make out with girls, I might as well get paid while doing it.
An easy gig. He wouldn’t have it any other way.
The lights were dim, the music boomed, and more people filled into the space to dance closer together. They were in the kitchen, of all places. Couldn’t they get hyped up somewhere else?
But it was nothing to Lawrence. He liked how crazy it could get, at one of these parties. Anything could happen, and it never got boring, if done right. Lawrence knew how to do it right, or at least pick the right parties to go to.
From where he was in the kitchen, Lawrence could see into the living room. A television was playing an old Kung Fu flick. It was a classic, one of Lawrence’s favorites.
Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon. Good taste.
Stoners were on the couch across the screen, watching, enraptured with the fights. Lawrence was right there with them.
The moment he saw what was on the screen, he knew this would a good party, for both fun and for funds. Turned out he was right.
Lawrence watched the movie, passing the time while keeping close to the stash. A duffle bag on the counter behind him. One of the straps was wrapped around his arm.
Lawrence turned, then realized he had to move his line of sight down.
A girl. A kid.
Much younger than anyone else here, but she wasn’t out of place with her styling. A short bob, eyeliner and lipstick. A loose cream cardigan sweater and denim shorts, with black tights covering her legs. She had a choker around her neck.
It was odd, seeing someone seemingly on the younger side here, dressed like that. It was more odd that she had to be standing so close.
Close. Uncomfortably close, even with all the people hanging out and dancing. There was enough room that she could stand a foot away, if she wanted to. She apparently didn’t want to.
Pressing up, close, looking up, smiling. A full set of teeth.
“Mind if I light it up?”
The odd girl asked him an odd question.
Lawrence tilted his head, unsure if she meant what he thought she meant.
“Like, you looking to score?”
The odd girl gave a shrug, non-committal.
Lawrence squinted at her. Something wasn’t right, here.
“Do you live here?” he asked.
“I mean, I’m just trying to think of any reason why you might be here. Are you… a cop?”
She laughed. Sincere, but loud, for her size. She touched his arm.
“I’m not cop, silly! I can’t go to parties to have fun? Isn’t that what parties are for?”
“What’s your name?”
Another odd question.
“Um, my friends call me El.”
I’m not about to give anyone here my real name.
The odd girl dropped her jaw, an exaggerated gesture. She hit him in the arm.
“El? That’s kind of like my name!”
I don’t know what that means.
“Are you looking to score or nah?” Lawrence questioned. “I’m about close my shift, if you know what I mean, and I can’t accept any more payment after I’m done. It fudges up the numbers when people do the audit, later.”
“Wow, sounds like a lot of work.”
“It’s not my job, but I don’t want to make it harder for the next guy. It makes it harder for me, later, and then I can’t reap the other benefits as much.”
“What other benefits?”
Like making out with hot girls.
“Being able to get paid while chilling with friends,” Lawrence answered. “But, you know what, I’m closing up shop, now. I’m not about to do business with a kid, sorry. Not like this.”
The odd girl pouted. She really did come off as disappointed.
“That so? Ah, too bad. I am looking to score, by the way.”
“Sorry, maybe you can try your luck with my other buddies, but not me.”
She shook her head.
“No. I think I like you, so I’ll give this another shot later.”
Gentle, she put her hand on his arm, brushing it up. Lawrence flinched, backing up even though he couldn’t, allowing himself to get jabbed again.
The odd girl brought her hands back, giggling. She retreated into the crowd.
“You’re funny. Bye, El.”
She was gone before he could make any sense of it.
He did his best to forget about it, hoping no one else saw that interaction. He spent the rest of his time waiting, watching the movie over in the living room.
A sharp whistle hit his ears. That pitch.
Lawrence noticed Charlie motioning for him. She had gotten the others. It was time to count up the funds. He gave her a gesture in acknowledgement.
Time to get ready.
They were coming, and he’d meet them soon.
He braced himself for the meeting.
No strength, no will to fight. Lawrence closed his eyes and prayed that his end would be a swift one.
He wasn’t particularly religious, but he prayed.
And prayed some more.
The end wasn’t coming.
Slow, unsure, Lawrence opened his eyes again.
She wasn’t here.
Lawrence darted his eyes around, surveying the scene.
He didn’t see her. She wasn’t here.
A noise, coming from behind, where he couldn’t see. A bang. Several more.
That wild, frenzied scream again, fried yet raw at the end.
Then, a sharp decrease in intensity and volume. The scream began trail, losing steam, until all he could manage to pick up was a low moan, and that trailed off as well.
Until he couldn’t hear anything. It was silent. Lawrence almost considered that he’d gone deaf.
Almost. Heavy boots hitting the tile, hitting liquid, dashed those concerns.
But now he had more.
The steps went around him. With only his eyes, he followed the man as he strolled around, stopping in front of Lawrence, looking down at him.
Lawrence managed to find the breath to produce a sound in response to the presence above him. A word. A name.
Styx smirked. It unsettled.
“Pale as a ghost,” Styx said, before letting out a deep, warped chuckle.
Much to Lawrence’s confusion, the man bent down, and extended a hand. In his other a hand was a handgun, a distinct lengthy attachment at the end of it. Lawrence was too tired to piece together what it was, exactly, and what that meant for the situation as it stood.
Couldn’t stay here forever, though. His hand was forced, and he had to muster up the strength to lift his arm.
They shook hands.
Lawrence broke away from the man, wanting to wipe his palm on his jeans. He hated that he was sweaty. Nervous, knees weak. Arms heavy.
It took all of his effort to come off as calm and ready. It was all surface level, though. Just appearances.
The man, Roland, scanned the rest of them with a very careful eye.
They were all present and accounted for, standing outside on the expansive lawn of the suburban home. The party had spilled outside of the house, so a group of people situated in a circle was nothing out of the ordinary, here. There were other, smaller circles around as well, the occasional puffs of smoke billowing out like chimneys.
“I see our customers are making quick use of our products,” Roland said.
“They are,” Lawrence said, trying to hide the dry, scratchy tone in his voice. Short sentences helped. “It’s been easy.”
“Good,” Roland said, scratching his chin. Cool.
He was the best dressed of anyone here, of ravers and gang members alike. A nice dress shirt, the brand was probably some Italian name he couldn’t pronounce. Thin wire glasses that gave him a more sophisticated touch. Beige, slim khakis. He looked more like he was ready to present at a conference than meet with some low-level thugs.
A handsome, but still chiseled look. Rugged and tough. He could fit right at home on the front cover of a magazine. Lawrence could admit that much.
It contrasted against Lawrence’s own outfit. A basketball jersey over a baggy white shirt and baggy jeans. Lawrence made a mental note in his head. To use him for inspiration, one day.
As good as he looked, he also wasn’t a guy to mess with. Lawrence wouldn’t dare try.
“Has it been easy for everyone else?” Roland asked.
Everyone else. It was all the new guys, and the even newer ones.
Standing in a circle. It was Lawrence, Charlie, Jonathan, and the most recent members Melissa and Eduardo.
Melissa had a strong resemblance to the girl Lawrence had just been blowing off some steam with. She wasn’t a ten, not even an nine, but she could be a strong eight on a good day, and today was a good day. Straight brown hair, hazel eyes, and a tight shirt that showed her rather large chest. Lawrence actually preferred them on the smaller side, and he was more of a waist and butt guy, but he could see himself make an exception when it came to her.
But, she shot him down rather quickly, and he accepted the rejection with grace. She simply wasn’t into guys like that.
Eduardo, however, was on the opposite end of the spectrum. Something about him bugged Lawrence. He was tall, lanky, awkward in his gait. Hair combed back, the sides shaved. With the denim jacket he wore, and the way he kept checking the house behind him, he couldn’t be across as any more of a punk if he tried.
That, and his face looked a little punchable.
He wasn’t used to being in a gang, yet.
He wasn’t used to being in this country yet.
Charlie was the one to answer his question.
“It’s been a profitable night, sir, these kids really think they need this stuff to have a good time.”
“To be fair,” Jonathan said, “They do.”
“It helps,” Lawrence offered. “Helps us, helps them as well.”
Roland nodded, taking it all in.
“Did we recruit anyone?” he asked.
Everyone shook their heads. Though, Eduardo casted another glance at the house.
Roland was willing to accept that.
“Not a problem, and Charlie? No need for the sir, we’re still small, so we’re trying to build a close, familiar dynamic between us and you. Though, that form of respect will still need to apply to my boss, should you ever address her directly. La Señora.”
“Oh, okay, um, Roland. Thanks.”
La Señora. Benny. Lawrence hadn’t gotten a chance to meet her, but it was a goal to reach, one day. He’d wanted to be in the upper echelon, one of the big guys. Going to these parties, making bank, it was good, enjoyable work. Fun and games. But it was just that. Fun, and games. This kind of life wouldn’t sustain him forever. Lawrence knew that he had to look and plan ahead, and that meant he couldn’t be on the lower rung forever.
Money. It was all about the green.
He wanted to find a way to get noticed by Roland, by Benny. To impress them.
He had to step it up.
“We just finished counting the revenue, matching it with the product sold. We didn’t sell everything, but it all adds up properly, and we’re in the green, too. It’s all good.”
“That’s what I like to hear… Lawrence, was it?”
“Right, sir, I mean, just Roland, right.”
Lawrence shook his head, feeling like an idiot.
The group, minus Lawrence and Roland, erupted in laughter.
Lawrence rolled his eyes, trying to keep a relaxed expression. He could roll with the punches, he was good at that.
The laughter didn’t last long, and it wasn’t even really to bully or humiliate him. It was a playful sort of teasing.
“Another for ‘L’ for El,” Eduardo commented.
Lawrence couldn’t help but be bothered by that.
We’re not friends, Eddie.
The laughter kicked back up again, to Lawrence’s chagrin. He was that much closer to putting some hands on the punk.
Roland raised a hand, and that was enough. The group was silenced.
“Levity is fine, but let’s stay on the task at hand.”
Eduardo answered for them, as if he was allowed to speak for Lawrence.
“Okay, and sorry, El.”
Don’t fucking call me that.
Roland gestured. “May I see the money?”
It was Charlie that had the bag. She walked over to Roland, breaking the circle of people, to hand the money over.
A light in Lawrence’s eye. He blinked, and started shaking his head.
The bag was black, so why was there red and blue bouncing off it it?
It hit Lawrence.
Someone else called it out.
It wasn’t even a matter of being organized in their escape. It was about survival. Move somewhere that wasn’t here.
Lawrence ran, and didn’t get three steps before he was interrupted. Someone had bumped into him. There was a second of panic before he saw that it was Charlie.
“Faster!” she yelled.
You don’t have to tell me that.
The sentence would have came out if he had the time to ask. Instead, confused, he breathed out, hard, and kept running towards the house. It was the only place he could think to go, or at least to go through.
The house was big, multiple stories, but the number of ways getting in were limited. The front door was wide open, but the entry way was choked, with number of people all having the same idea as Lawrence and Charlie. Pushing, yelling, general panic.
Lawrence stopped, and brought an arm out to stop Charlie. He stole a quick glance back. The cars, the lights, the men in uniform chasing after the kids.
“Shit,” Lawrence whispered.
“Why are we stopping?” Charlie said, “They’re coming this way!”
Scanning, thinking, Lawrence replied. “We’re going to get stuck among all those people if we run right into it now. We can’t get stuck.”
“Where then? Around to the fence?”
“Can you jump?”
“I can try, but-”
“We don’t have time to try, Charlie, we have to do shit.”
“Then no go on jumping the fence. Plus, I have some added weight, literally.”
Lawrence looked at what Charlie was talking about. The strap around her side.
“Why do you have the bag?”
“Fuck, they’re coming this way, El, here.”
Charlie moved without giving Lawrence a proper answer. They weren’t going through the group at the door, they went around.
Windows at the front of the house, as tall as they were wide. When Lawrence first arrived at the house, he was able the see the dining room, the tables and silverware on the other side. Now, something was blocking the view. Something murky.
It almost gave Lawrence pause from wanting to go in.
“Sure about this?” Lawrence asked.
“Nope,” Charlie said, “But we’ve got no choice. We’re deep in this shit, now.”
Charlie grabbed a rock from a border of a small garden at the base of the window. She grabbed another, crushing flowers and leaves as she went back over to hand it over to Lawrence.
“Shit,” Lawrence said.
No more words, just an agreement on what they had to do. Lawrence was willing to go that far.
They threw the rocks.
Struck home, hitting the base and perimeter of the windows. It shattered, making an opening for them. The edges were jagged, but they were covered up well enough.
Grey smoke blew out of the hole.
“Shit,” Lawrence said, with emphasis.
“Too late to back down now,” Charlie said. “Come on!”
They ran, before anyone else had caught on to what they just did.
Lawrence covered his mouth with his shirt, squinting hard, eyes watery and lungs irritated. The effect was immediate.
Too late to back down now.
Escaping into the darkness, Lawrence let it envelop him.
Lawrence coughed out, hard. Everything hurt again.
It was dark when he went in, but the sudden light filling in the room felt like an assault on his existence. He lurched, groaning again from the harsh movement.
He would have fallen over if he wasn’t already sitting, being rolled into the room.
Lawrence couldn’t fight back, even if he wanted to. He was entirely at the mercy of Styx. Which was worse than being helpless.
“Take it easy, lil’ boy,” Styx said. His voice was unnatural for him. Soft, sympathetic. Understanding. Lawrence had dealt with Styx before, back when it was just him and his Ghosts, he’d never heard Styx sound like this. It was unnatural.
Lawrence couldn’t see him, with Styx pushing him as he sat in the wheelchair. Only being able to hear his voice, while still being at the whim of where Styx wanted to take him, while not being able to see Styx, made for an odd, out of body experience.
Maybe it’s a metaphor for everything that’s happened in this fucking hotel.
Blinking, Lawrence started getting a better picture of the room he was a rolled into.
A conference room, not for guests, but for the staff and management related to the hotel. Only accessible by going through the back parts of the building, where guests weren’t allowed. It wasn’t as fancy or as decorative, compared to the other parts of the hotel he’d seen. More particular, utilitarian in design. Bland, brown walls with nothing on them, a long conference table, enough for at least twenty people, judging by how many chairs there were.
An ambient light had dimmed to a low settling, seemingly on its own. Lawrence could see himself falling asleep here.
Could. With Styx here, Lawrence couldn’t afford to get any shut-eye.
Even though his body and spirit were begging more rest, Lawrence had to keep going. Keep staying up.
Pushed along, Styx moved him to the end of the conference room, the other end of the table. Styx stopped there, turning Lawrence around, then pressing the locks at the wheels. Lawrence wasn’t able to move, regardless, but Styx just wanted to make sure.
Styx put his attention on the chair itself, moving himself over to it.
It was a simple thing to do, to just pick a chair and move it. Styx apparently thought that ‘simple’ was too boring.
He kicked, and the chair was sent sliding, skidding, until it fell over and collided with the wall. A violent crash.
Lawrence startled, and he was wracked with pain yet again.
There it was, Lawrence thought, That’s the Styx I know. The one I’m familiar with.
Familiar didn’t exactly mean better, though, not in this case.
Leaving the chair fallen over, Styx rearranged more stuff. He put Lawrence’s wheelchair in place of the old one, and Styx himself grabbed a seat at the closest chair next to him, to Lawrence’s right.
He fell into it, staring at Lawrence. His eyes were wide, and a little wild.
Leather jacket, no shirt, black skinny jeans. The whites of Styx’s eyes, the yellow of his teeth, contrasted against the melanin of his skin. He wasn’t her, but he looked like he could eat him at even the slightest provocation.
Lawrence was stuck in a room with this man.
The bewilderment, the disorientation, was reaching new heights.
Styx smiled at him. Lawrence was starting to hate that look.
“Hi,” he said.
Lawrence responded with a blink.
“Quite the day, isn’t it?”
Lawrence wanted to throw up, but there was nothing in his stomach, now.
Styx crossed his legs, settling into his seat. He looked as comfortable as Lawrence wasn’t.
“Hi,” Styx said again.
Lawrence wasn’t sure how to respond. Styx greeted him a second time.
The man crossed his legs the other way.
The third time. As if Lawrence needed any more stress.
“You’re Lawrence. I bet you’re wondering how you got into this situation. The choices you took that led you here, the thoughts in your head that made you make certain decisions, molding you into the person you are today. Were they the right thoughts? Did you end up where you wanted to go? Was it worth it? Would you do it all over again?”
A specific, ugly emotion was beginning to stir and rise to the surface. One that he’d tried not to think about or consider for years. Lawrence pushed it down, harder, farther than before. It hurt.
“What do you want, Styx?” Lawrence asked. It strained, but he couldn’t just be a passive actor in this.
“That, right there. That face. Faces.”
“What?” Lawrence breathed the question.
“I wanted to see your face, how you look at your lowest moment. I want to savor whatever it is that brings those expressions out, for the world to see. It makes me vibrate.”
Sickening. It was twisted.
“Fuck you, Styx,” Lawrence said, even though it was probably the single worst thing he could say, at this juncture.
Styx’s expression didn’t waver.
“You’re welcome. And you look great, by the way.”
Lawrence wanted to move, to leave, to figure this out another time, to get back with his crew and be back at the territory, his apartment, his bed. All he needed was rest.
But he couldn’t. Helpless.
It probably showed on his face. The face that Styx was delighted to be able to see.
It just served to make Lawrence that much smaller.
Before Lawrence ventured further into dangerous emotional territory, the doors opened with a burst.
Lawrence knew that voice. It was a very specific pit in his stomach.
Styx fell back into his seat, leaning over, turning somewhat to face the new party.
D stomped over to them, but she directed herself to Styx.
She smacked Styx on the arm. Not a playful hit.
Styx had little to no reaction. He just shifted around to have her in view.
“How many rounds did you pump into her?”
“I told, you just needed one. I put in the appropriate dosage for you ahead of time. I gave you the extras as a precaution.”
“Everything about handling this was a precaution.”
“You didn’t need to hit her with everything!”
“I was being ‘pre-cautious.’”
She started wailing on him, punching him in the same spot on the arm. Styx didn’t flinch or try to defend himself.
“You jerk, you big dummy! Idiot! Loser!”
After the tenth punch, Styx finally made a move. He used his other arm to grab D by the shoulder. He threw her off him with a single push. She was just a little kid, after all.
“For your information, I was being careful for her sake. I loved it, truly, the image she painted with Xander was exquisite, but the others don’t appreciate that kind of art. You do, but not them. If I let it get out of hand, then it becomes a problem for me, okay? So I put a stop to the shitshow.”
D put her hands on her hips, sticking her tongue out at Styx. Styx, of Styx’s Gang, the leader of the gang that had connections and relations with every major player in Stephenville.
“Dummy,” she said.
Lawrence had been through enough shit that he could actually believe what he was seeing.
I swore that I’d come up with something, the next time I saw you. But I don’t even care about that anymore.
Lawrence tried sitting up in the wheelchair, but he was too weak to move. The chair creaked and wobbled a bit, and that got their attention.
D and Styx turned to look at Lawrence.
“Explain,” Lawrence said. “Now.”
D inhaled, making it deep. D exhaled, and walked over to Styx’s chair. She sat on the armrest, her own arms folded.
Lawrence hadn’t seen her for over twenty-four hours. He had been worried about her disappearance, paranoid over what she could possibly be doing.
Getting a call by the girl herself, it confirmed his fears. In a frenzied tone, she told him to run down to the casino. Wendy was in trouble, and he couldn’t just stay holed up in the hotel suite and do nothing. It added to his fears. How did she know that Wendy needed help? How did she know that Lawrence was still in the room?
And then he found Wendy, in that hall. Granon. Everything that followed.
Lawrence learned that his paranoia was wholly, completely justified.
“When Granon first came on to the scene, and started nudging into our territory, I did what I usually do. Research. You can never be too careful. In this case, if there’s a new gang in town, the first person who’d know anything about it would be Styx.”
She gestured over to the man in question.
“Granon was just one branch of his employer’s organization, but we all knew this wasn’t a feud that we could just drag out. We’re still new, relatively small. If we got stuck on dealing with the People’s Hammer, or if it got messy, it wouldn’t present the best image of us if we were able to move forward after that.”
D breathed in, taking her time.
“So I called in another favor with Styx.”
There was a particular word in that sentence that Lawrence didn’t like.
D nudged the floor with her foot, causing her to sway a bit on the chair. Styx moved as well.
“Back when we were just starting our alliance, while we were still hunting Benny, I knew what we were doing was super duper messy, blowing up gangs and their bases with the weapons I found. It sort of fudges up what Styx had taken decades to set up. So I let him know what we were up to, as a courtesy. And Styx offered to do some damage control after the fact, so nothing unforseen can blow up in our faces, later.”
“You have got to be fucking kidding me,” Lawrence said.
D shook her head.
“I’m not kidding, sorry El.”
Lawrence was shaken to the core.
“And this?” he asked. “How exactly does Styx fit into this?”
“I came to him for help, and, using his connections, pulled some strings and gave you and Wendy a reservation to stay at the Lunar Tower, with fake IDs so the staff will know that you’re legit and that the room’s already covered.”
“You’re welcome,” Styx said. He couldn’t have sounded anymore pleased.
Lawrence needed a moment to compose himself, gather his thoughts. He gave himself that moment.
When it came time to speak his mind, the result was still disorganized.
“Why Styx? Why me and Wendy? Why like this? Why… why?”
“Styx and I… we go way back.”
Styx gave D a look, though D didn’t turn to give him one.
Lawrence wasn’t about to pick apart that answer with a ten-foot pole.
“And about this setup itself, it was Styx’s idea. He-”
“-wanted to get something out of giving this little rascal and her super friends a handout. I gave her conditions that made it interesting for me. One, she couldn’t help you directly. Two, it had to be done in this hotel, and three, you were supposed to handle the bulk of the work done here.”
Styx pointed at him.
Stunned. As always.
“Yeah, bitch. As I understood it, you’re supposed to be the face of this group, and I know the kind of muscle that girl brings. You were supposed to handle business with Granon like how everyone else handles their shit here. With class, and diplomacy. Instead, you spent most of your stay up in that room, and when you do confront Xander on his bullshit, you vomit on his shoes. Though, I fuckin’ loved it, so thank you for that.”
“It’s something I learned very quickly,” Styx said. “If you want to be in this business, you can’t just do whatever you want, and think you can get away with it. I can, of course, because I earned the right to do whatever the fuck I want, whenever the fuck I want, however the fuck I want. But you? No. Delegating is good, but it’s better to stick your own neck out, sometimes, show bitches you mean business. You wanted to prove yourself to me, and to the rest of the gangs? This performance doesn’t cut it.”
D kept shaking her head, tugging at her choker.
“I win this round,” Styx said, looking at the back of D’s head. “Better luck next time.”
Styx stood from his seat. D jumped to get out of his way.
“That’s three favors, D, now it’s my turn. Three for three. I’ll be coming by to collect the first one,” Styx said, ruffling D’s hair. She reacted, pushing him off to fix it.
Styx continued. “It’ll be sooner, rather than later. Could be tomorrow, the next day, or the next week, so I suggest you get yourself together before then. Show me you’re as promising as D pitched you to be.”
Styx started to take his leave.
“It’ll be fun, I promise. I’ve got plans for all of you. D? Thanks for stopping by to visit, you really do have a talent for making things interesting. Do come by again. You know, this body’s getting older, man, I need more excuses to relieve some fucking stress. And, one more thing, don’t worry about the mess, we’ve got guys for that.”
Lawrence or D didn’t respond as he left, the door clicking as it closed. A heavy silence hung in the air.
When Lawrence broke it, it felt palpable.
“What was the third favor?” Lawrence asked.
For a third time, D shook her head.
“Alright, fine, another question. Why the fuck didn’t you tell us any of this beforehand?” Lawrence asked.
D was able to answer that.
“It was part of Styx’s conditions. I couldn’t help you directly. But I was watching, and things weren’t going the way they were supposed to. Wendy was out, and you were there, taking a nap. And when Wendy was being followed, I panicked, and I thought I had to do something. I broke one of the conditions.”
“Fuck,” Lawrence said, “Fuck. I was going to insist that I’d help, do my supposed part, but Wendy wanted me to stay up there, she wanted me to rest. How was I supposed to know I had a bigger part to play?”
“I don’t know. I thought it would work out a different way. I know you aren’t the kind of guy who likes to stand still. Even if you had gotten hurt from your first fight with Granon, you’d push yourself to do more, after that. You’ll do anything to take that next step.”
“Wendy didn’t want me to do that. She would have rather pushed herself.”
“And look where that brought us,” D said. “Fudge.”
D dropped herself into the seat that Styx had just occupied. She brought her feet and legs up, and she hugged her knees.
“What’s next?” Lawrence said, wanting to get to it.
“Either I, or someone from the medical staff will give you a proper checkup, clean your wounds and make sure nothing broken or permanently damaged. Then, you can rest, for real this time. Still supposed to be out of the room by noon, though.”
“That’s enough time to take it easy.”
“You never needed much,” D said. “And after that, we put this mess behind us.”
Lawrence put his hands into his lap, making fists, feeling each cut.
“Speaking of messes,” Lawrence said. “Where is she?”
D had paused before answering.
“I was looking after her, earlier, making sure she was still breathing and had a pulse after being filled up with pentazemin. She up in the room, now, out cold.”
“Pentazemin. Isn’t that a muscle relaxer?”
“Benzodiazepine class. Antidepressant. It’s easy to get if you know what you’re looking for.”
“How’d you know that would work?”
Lawrence made a noise, the aches and pains coming back to haunt him.
“Dammit, D,” he said. “I wish you told me. Not just about this, but about her, too.”
“I wish I could,” D replied. “But my hands were tied. I tried to have some fun with it, giving you signs that I was around, that I was helping, but I guess it only served to make it worse.”
D looked genuine in her remorse.
“And, about Wendy, I don’t think anyone knew what happened there. I don’t even think she did. Darn, it wasn’t supposed to be like this.”
“It got messy,” Lawrence said. “Maybe it wasn’t public, but there’s blood on our hands now. She mutilated people, ruined them. I killed someone.”
“He has a pulse,” D said, “Not like he’s getting up any time soon.”
Lawrence no longer had the will to be shocked.
Lawrence wanted to say more, but the hurt was getting to him more, now, making its presence known. He couldn’t just fight past it forever.
“Wheel me over to get checked up on. If you know what you’re doing… I don’t mind if it’s you, I guess.”
D seemed to brighten up a little, hearing that. “Really?”
“Don’t make me regret it.”
“You won’t, promise. I know what I’m doing.”
“Alright. Then, we deal with the rest of this tomorrow, or whenever she wakes up. We need to be in sync, if we want this group to continue and thrive, having her go off on her own and try to do everything herself isn’t that. We can’t just hit her with antidepressants forever. It might even make things worse in the long run.”
“I don’t want that,” D said.
D threw her head back, making a croaking noise. She stared at the ceiling.
“Uuuugh, this sucks.”
“Might not be the best word to use.”
D looked back at Lawrence.
“How about you? How you handling this?”
Lawrence gave his thoughts.
“This is fucked. We’re fucked. Everything about this is fucked.”
Lawrence would have added more, but he didn’t want more smoke in his lungs. He was close to coughing them out.
They were in the clear, for the moment. Out of the smoke, out of sight of anyone who might be looking for them.
Charlie had given him the rundown, and the bag. Roland had shoved the bag in Charlie’s arms, forcing her to take care of it. So there was nothing that could pin him down, Charlie had guessed.
But now it was Lawrence’s responsibility. There was another meeting point they had planned, just in case, a couple blocks away. No specific order was given to meet there, but that was why they had designated a location in the first place. This was that case.
The spot itself was fine. It should be. It was getting there that was the problem.
Smoke, everywhere. The house was trashed, more so that Lawrence had realized. And they were sitting still, while there might be cops right outside the room and hall.
And they had a bag of money and drugs. It was all collected into one bag when they counted everything up. Made for easy transport, but if they got caught, then it was all over.
Couldn’t let this be over.
Lawrence had convinced Charlie to let him carry the bag. He was faster, and if it came down to it, more willing to do what have to be done. For survival, he’d shoulder that burden for the both of them.
“How is it?” Charlie asked, keeping to whispers, keeping it short.
Lawrence peeked through the crack of the door. He tested his luck a bit by sliding his hand over, opening it some more.
“No one,” he answered, voice low. “But that could change in any second.”
“Right,” Charlie said.
They had heard footsteps earlier, rushing in this bedroom to evade any potential pursuers. Nobody followed, but that didn’t mean they were in the clear. They weren’t familiar with the layout of the house, they didn’t know what the situation was in either the backyard or the street past that. They had to leave, but rushing without thinking would be an even bigger mistake.
“Let’s give it a few more seconds, then we move over to that room on the other side of the hall, and check out the window. There.”
“I can’t see it from this angle, El.”
“Oh. Uh, it’s over there. Just follow me when it’s time.”
Lawrence raised a hand. With the other, he widened the opening a little more, inch by inch.
He threw his hand down.
Lawrence got to his feet and booked it. Charlie was right behind him.
It was a rush, from both the adrenaline coursing through his veins and the speed at which he crossed the hall. There wasn’t anyone around to catch him, but, if there was, he would have liked to imagine himself like a ninja, slipping away at the last second. The image fit, somewhat. Mouth covered with his shirt, bag slung over his back. Like a modern reboot of those movies he watched all the time.
The door had been cracked open on the other side, as well. It made for an easy escape out of the hall, and back out of sight, into the safety and shadows.
Charlie closed the door behind them, but not all the way. She kept low, staying next to it, blocking it, in case someone else tried to get through.
“Yes!” she said. She lifted her hand, and Lawrence returned the favor with a high five.
“Almost there,” Lawrence said. He kept moving, putting his back on the vanity set across the room, away from the door.
“Move,” he said. “We can still hide if anyone wanders in. If the door gets blocked, then they’ll know for sure.”
“Good point.” She listened, crossing the room. She didn’t hide right away, though, instead checking through the window, facing the outside world.
“What’s it look like out there?”
“Promising. Los policías are mostly busy dealing with all the kids outside. Gathering them up, making sure they’re away from the house and out of trouble.”
“Is it everyone?”
“I… don’t see Jonathan or Melissa, or Eduardo. Definitely don’t see Roland.”
“We might be the only ones in here, then. Which is a good thing.”
“Might be. Keep in mind we’re the ones stuck in a burning house.”
A burning house.
“About that,” Lawrence started.
“Don’t you think this seems all… off?”
“There’s smoke, but it’s not killing us, and it’s thinned the deeper we got into the house. And, haven’t you noticed that we never came across anything that was burning?”
“This was all staged,” Charlie said, her eyes wide, mouth agape. “Someone set up some smoke and called the cops?”
“Do you see firefighters out there?”
Charlie checked out the window again. “I don’t.”
“They’d be here by now if this was legit.”
“So if it’s not a fire, then what?”
“That, I can’t answer. Right now, the main concern of the police is just getting everyone out of the house, and they sort it out from there.”
“What if we’re stuck in this house and there’s a bomb.”
“There’s no bomb,” Lawrence said. He considered it. “There’s no bomb.”
“Should we just ditch the bag and go outside? We might not get in trouble. There’s so many kids out there, we can just slip away and meet with the others.”
Again, Lawrence considered it.
“I want to try,” Lawrence said. “If we get out of this, with the money and drugs, Roland’s going to know we’re the real deal.”
He’s going to know I’m the real deal.
Very little time to argue, and there was no doubt in Lawrence’s voice. Charlie went with it.
“Sure, okay, let’s try.”
“Gracias, Charlie. Now get over here.”
Charlie crossed the room again, meeting with Lawrence. She got on her knees.
“We’re close to the back,” Lawrence told her. “We’re so close I can almost fucking taste it. Past the backyard is that service road. They can block it, but not without fucking up traffic there, and with the majority of the smoke coming from the front of the house, that’s where they’ll focus their attention on. As long as we can get to the back and make sure things are quiet, we’ll be alright.”
“Alright, I like that. Taking advantage over someone else’s scheme. It’s great.”
Lawrence felt a hint of pride, hearing that.
“Whoever got the ball rolling on this knew what they were doing. I’d be impressed if it didn’t actively fuck up our night.”
“Yeah,” Lawrence said. “Okay. Get ready. Same thing as before, except now, we head straight for the back.”
“Right behind you.”
As silent as possible, Lawrence crawled over to the door. He opened it.
Lawrence made the appropriate gesture.
They ran for it.
The path was unobstructed. All clear. Clear.
They passed the TV, the movie was still playing.
Ears pounding, muscles aching, heart beating heavy in his chest, but it didn’t matter. Lawrence saw the way forward. It was right there. He could make it.
They were so close.
“Hey! El, El!”
It took several seconds for Lawrence to switch mental tracks. In the meantime, he turned his head.
Eduardo, and a girl he’d never seen before in his life.
“Where you going?” Edurado asked.
“Where the fuck else? Meeting the rest at the safe spot!”
“Are the rest there?”
“We will be!”
“Sounds good.” He looked to the girl, grabbing her hand. “Come!”
The girl only ran, keeping up with the rest of them. She looked too puzzled to make a proper response.
You better not be dead weight.
The backyard. The sliding glass door was already opened, and there was a pool just ahead. They’d have to go around, but the coast looked clear.
Lawrence picked up the pace, running harder, faster. Charlie didn’t lose any speed.
They formed a line out the door. Lawrence, Charlie, Eduardo and the girl.
A crumble and shouts.
Lawrence turned. It took him several seconds to figure out what exactly he was looking at.
Blue, and long. Wispy in quality. A vague, human shape, bending and twisting in unnatural ways. Like it was trying to break out of itself, but it struggled, trapped by its blue and glossy skin.
Lawrence wanted to slap himself.
It wasn’t a monster. Monsters weren’t real.
It was the girl that Eduardo brought with her, wrapped in what looked like a pool tarp.
She shouted some more, tried moving some more, before falling to the ground. She kept fighting all the way, but it only made her more stuck in the thing.
“Maria!” Eduardo shouted. He ran over to try and get her out.
He tugged, but the tarp was heavy, and the girl kept moving too much. It wasn’t a good combo.
Eduardo looked at Lawrence, Charlie. His eyes were pleading.
“I need help!”
Charlie went over without any hesitation.
In contrast, Lawrence was still.
They both worked together to get the girl out, but they weren’t making much progress.
Eduardo called out for Lawrence again.
“El! Get over here!”
“Who is she?”
“She’s… she needs help!”
“Are you recruiting her?”
“Just help me get her out of here! The tarp is huge, and if it gets in the water, it might drag her in!”
“The pool is right behind me! It’s not going anywhere near her!”
Eduardo was freaking out more than the girl was, and if he didn’t shut the fuck up…
Lawrence went to them.
He put his hands on the tarp, yanking it, coordinating with the others so it would end up being worse.
A lot of moving, jostling around. The bag slipped over his shoulder, bumping into him and Charlie, Eduardo.
It was getting in the way.
Lawrence threw the bag off his shoulders.
There, he had more to move. To breathe.
It was easier, now, to get the tarp off the girl. It slipped out faster, not going taut as much. It was working. Lawrence was able to see parts of her face as they continued.
“Whoa, hey, wait!”
The cry came from Charlie. It was angry, confused, and pointed.
It got Lawrence’s attention, and he turned to look.
Someone was running off with the bag.
The drugs. The money.
Lawrence immediately left the rest behind to give chase.
Around the pool, to the grass, over the goddamn garden gnome. The fence.
Fuck, Lawrence thought.
He was too late.
Not that he was too slow, but she had gotten too much of a head start.
She was sitting on the stone fence, legs hanging over on the other side. The bag around her shoulders.
The odd girl.
Lawrence was still running, and she had time to monologue.
“Told you I’d come back to get my score. See? Nothing a few online tutorials and a little improv can’t solve.”
He opened his mouth to say something, anything, but he was losing the breath, and he was just at a loss of words.
So close to the fence.
“Oh, I like that expression, it’s nice. You’re fun, you know that? I might come around to see you again. But for now, so long, El… boy!”
She ducked, and disappeared from behind the fence. Lawrence’s blood was hot and pumping. He kept running-
More shouting stopped Lawrence in his tracks.
Charlie’s, and Eduardo’s.
Lawrence wheeled around.
Cops had made it to the scene, forcing them both back. Charlie had her hands up, and so did Eduardo. They backed away, slow.
None of the cops looked as if they had any intention to shoot, but no one was going to give them a reason to. All control of the situation was deferred to the cops, now.
One got down on a knee, over the tarp. The girl – Maria – still hadn’t got out yet.
Lawrence fell down on his own. On his knees.
Charlie and Eduardo saw Lawrence, and a cop followed their gaze. He stalked over to Lawrence.
That odd girl had run off with the bag, so the three of them were nothing but kids at a party, now. No different than the rest that were here to drink booze and smoke some pot. They’d get escorted out, and like Charlie had suggested, they’d slip away from the scene.
But there was more to it than that.
They had a job to do, there was a responsibility that Lawrence shouldered, but he failed. He couldn’t do it. He had let down Roland, Benny, the rest of El Carruaje.
What’s going to happen to me now?
He might as well be done.
Lawrence met Eduardo’s eyes, and pushed with hatred, seething with it. Eduardo broke away from the glare.
He’ll pay for this. Someday, somehow. That fucker.
It wasn’t supposed to end like this. He wasn’t supposed to lose. He wasn’t supposed to be the small fry.
Cops were approaching him. He didn’t care. He had emotions, and he needed release.
Frustrated, livid, Lawrence raised both fists and-
-gently placed them at the foot of the bed.
Lawrence looked over Wendy as she slept.
Back in the hotel room. Dark, but the hour was sometime in the morning. Lawrence wasn’t sure of the exact time.
He hadn’t gotten much sleep. He’d like sleep, and he knew he needed sleep, but it wasn’t in his nature to rest when there was other shit to deal with.
Still in the wheelchair, but he could move on his own. It was a slow process, but he could manage. He just had to be careful in his pushing, or he’d ruin the stitches and bandages that wrapped his body up. Funny, in a way. He was still alive, but he felt entombed.
Lawrence had to shift his whole torso to turn. He had a basic, soft neck brace on. A precaution.
“Who in the fuck are you?” Lawrence asked her, his voice barely above a whisper.
Wendy didn’t respond. Well, she couldn’t.
Lawrence couldn’t help but find it a little funny. Must be the late hour.
“I thought I asked you something.”
Wendy kept sleeping.
She was tucked in the bed, the same one she had offered to Lawrence, but he didn’t mind. She needed it more than he did.
Glasses off, folded on the nightstand beside her, dressed in pajamas that she had brought herself. D was the one who helped her on that front. She was already like that when he arrived, just a few minutes ago. No one else was allowed access to her, or even be in the same room.
After wheeling Lawrence in, D had taken some more numbers from her, mostly beats per minute. Everything seemed to have stabilized, whatever that meant for someone like her.
She explained that Wendy had a powerful regeneration ability. Lawrence had seen it firsthand. There was a chance that the antidepressant would run its course faster than normal, and that she would be getting up soon.
Lawrence didn’t care either way.
Then, D left, and it was just Wendy and Lawrence.
He continued to watch her sleep, unsure of how to feel about this. Unsure about everything. Himself.
“Forgive me for coming off as creepy, right now, I get it, but I wanted to see you. I want to see if you’re still the same Wendy and V I thought I knew. Who knows? I might see you as someone completely different once you wake up.”
Wendy didn’t stir or respond.
“To be fair, out of all us, you are the creepiest motherfucker. Ever.”
“I wonder if you remember the first time we crossed paths. I definitely do. You were the Bluemoon, then. Crazy, how things changed.”
He gripped the blanket, feeling some resistance from the bandages on his fingers.
“You were trying to protect me, weren’t you? I saw it, in that hall. Styx was there, but I couldn’t see him, and, in whatever fucked up headspace you were in, you deemed him as a threat. But not me.”
“At least, I’d like to think of it that way. It’ll make tomorrow easier, and the next day.”
A flutter of the eye. Lawrence thought that she’d awaken, but a minute passed, and there was no other activity.
It was a stark contrast, from what he’d seen before. Wendy looked so peaceful, in her sleep. The soft breathing, the relaxed expression. The fact that D had washed her body, getting her cleaned up. The full treatment, and she was asleep throughout all of it.
The setting of the room, the fancy and beautiful design. It made him think of something like a movie. His mind went those flicks he liked, then to fairy tales.
Must be the late hour.
Was she the sleeping beauty, waiting for the prince to save her? No, didn’t seem right, didn’t seem to fit. Not for her.
Then, was she the evil queen, with the power to turn into a dragon, only resting after expending so much strength?
Lawrence wasn’t sure.
If she was, then he wondered where he fit into all of that. If he was supposed to even fit in at all, or if he just stumbled into something he had no business being a part of.
Charlie and Jonathan and Melissa were gone, leaving the Ghosts after V and D officially joined. It had gotten to be too much for them, the stress of always watching their backs, it wasn’t the reason why they got into this life in the first place. It had gotten too hard.
Now it was just him. The normal one. Stuck with the Styx’s and D’s and the V’s of the world. The creepy and the crazies.
He used to think that the sacrifice was worth it. That the glamour and power that came with this life was a good goal to strive towards. Being one of the big guys. Thinking about it gave him pause, now.
But it was too late for that. He was too deep into this shit.